Quick quick update, Finally decided since I am an aspiring Graphic Designer I need to make a name for my self so I need to start doing flyers, posters, image editing etc. So yeah through out my tumblr now you’ll start to see examples of my work. I’m in the process of doing a logo at the minute. Please feedback on any work that I show would help getting opinions etc I’m always learning! Don’t hesitate to say it’s shit if you feel aha, so yeah…I think that’s it? Yeah…I’m done.
I haven’t wrote on this for a while now and I thought why not?! Todays post will be probably the deepest thing I’ve ever written and it is something I haven’t shared with a lot of people but it felt right to share it I needed to get feelings out and it relates to a certain song I came across last week…this song is off Drakes’ new album ‘Take Care’, The song is called ‘Look What You’ve Done’.
Yes I realise I am listening to the leaked copy of Take Care but I promise I will buy the album don’t shoot!
Anyway as I was in Uni, excited by the leak of the one album I’ve been waiting for ever since the title was announced in 2010, I flicked through song and I came to track 14. The song starts off with a quiet piano medley with Drake sounding like he was preparing to get something off his chest…this caught my attention I listened more then I payed attention to the lyrics.
I’ll post them here so I can break it down.
[Verse 1] It’s like ’09 in your basement and I’m in love with Nebby And I still love her but it fell through because I wasn’t ready And your back hurt, and your neck hurt, and you smoking heavy And I sit next to you, and I lecture you ‘cause those are deadly And then you ask shit and we argue about spending money on bullshit And you tell me I’m just like my father, my one button, you push it Now it’s “Fuck you, I hate you, I’ll move out in a heartbeat” And I leave out and you call me, you tell me that your sorry You love me, and I love you, and your heart hurts, mine does too And it’s just words and they cut deep but it’s our world, it’s just us two I see painkillers on the kitchen counter, I hate to see, it all hurt so bad But maybe I wouldn’t have worked as hard If you were healthy and it weren’t so bad Uh, maybe I should walk up the street, and try and get a job at the bank Cause leave it up to me, J, and Neeks, we’re probably gonna end up robbing a bank Then Wayne calls on my phone, conversation wasn’t that long Gets me a flight to Houston in the morning Oh it’s my time, yeah, it’s on He’s thinking of signing me, I come home We make a mixtape with seventeen songs I almost get a Grammy off of that thing They love your son and that boy gone You get the operation you dreamed of And I finally send you to Rome I get to make good on my promise It all worked out girl, we shoulda known Cause you deserve it
[Hook] This shit real, should I pinch you? After all the things that we been through, I got you Look what you’ve done, look what you’ve done Look what you’ve done for me now You knew that I was gonna be something We stressed out, and you need some, I got you Look what you’ve done, look what you’ve done
[Verse 2] It’s like ’06 in your backyard and I’m in love with Jade And I’m still in love, just wasn’t that real, so then it doesn’t fade And my father living in Memphis now he can’t come this way Over some minor charges and child support that just wasn’t paid Damn, boo-hoo, sad story, black american dad story Know that I’m your sister’s kid but That still don’t explain the love that you have for me I remember sneaking in your pool after school dances Damn your house feel like the Hamptons For all of my summer romances I never really had no one like you man this all new, Shh Made the world I knew bigger, changed the way that I viewed it Had all this fighting going on at the crib You calm me down when I lose it Told you I think I’m done acting, I’m more in touch with the music You said either way I’ll be a star, I could go so far Talked to me, to you got to me you You tossed the keys and loaned me your car Yeah, just a young kid in a drop top Lexus hopin’ that I don’t get arrested Just another kid thats goin’ through life So worried that I won’t be accepted But I could do anything, you said that, and you meant that You took me places, you spent that, they said no, we went back Checks bounce but we bounce back I put all the money in your accounts back And I thank you, I don’t know how it’d really be without that It worked out man You deserve it
As soon as the song was over, I felt emotionally attacthed to the song, like the Drake told my story. But how? How in anyway could I relate to nearly the same situations that someone has been through because in my head it feels like the things I go through I’m the only one going through them, obviously that is a naieve thought but thats the only way I can describe it. The 1st verse talks about his Mum and the struggles they went through. In my situation it’s just me and my mum. We fight, we argue, we say we hate each other but it’s only me and her…we rely on eachother. My dad was never around to be there for me. When me and my mum would argue she said one thing that got me… “You’re just like your Dad” that in it self is one of the worst things anyone could ever say to me. He also talks about finding pain killers on the kitchen counter, my mums had her problems and it’s exactly as Drake put it, If my mum didn’t have these problems and everything was fine then I wouldn’t be so determined to give back to my mum help her and have the perfect life we’ve always dreamed of. My mum has always been there for me and anything I do can never re-pay all the struggles she’s been through just to provide for me, Hopefully one day I give back.
The 2nd verse Drake talks about his Auntie, the one Auntie that was always there for him when he needed someone when he couldn’t turn to his mother. I had the exact same person in my life, My auntie would provide everything for me she took me on holidays, took me to football matches, bought me clothes, bought my first PlayStation helped me experience things that I could have never done just me and my mum…she always said to me and I remember it like it was yesterday "Whatever you want to do, don’t let anyone tell you, you can’t. Always strive to be the best person you can be". Me being younger I never understood what she meant so I just went back to playing with my toys, now I’ve grown up I understand every word. She would provide the things that my mum would say no don’t you’re spoiling him, but she never cared she just loved to see me smile. She had her health problems through all of this. She was my 2nd Mum. She sadly passed away Nov.7th 2001, coincidentally the day 10 years later Take Care was leaked Nov.7th 2011, the day I listened to this song.
The outro on the song has Drakes Grandma on a voicemail, she sounds very old and weak. Drake spoke in a pervious song about how he would never call his Grandma because of the way his life is now. The voicemail says “To let you know how grateful I am for your help for keeping me in this comfortable place, all I can say is Aubrey, remember the good times we had together and the times I used to look after you…and I still have a wonderful feeling about that. So God bless you and I hope I’ll see you.” - The first time I listened to this I looked at the date and that was the first time I realised it was actually the 10 year Anniversary of my Aunties death, the voicemail reminded me because in the end stages of my aunties death she was moved to Leeds Hospital, we all knew she was in a very bad state, as I went through to the room she looked very weak. The doctors said she was even too weak to speak, she heard my voice…in her weak state she called me over and said to me "I love you, I’ll see you soon.". On the way back to Manchester at night I looked up out the window to see the bright lights of the M.E.N car park, In my head something said to me "She won’t be here tomorrow." That was it, I knew then. I woke up in the morning to the news that she passed away that night. 10 years gone and I’ll never ever forget her. This song is hard to listen to because it brings up emotions I thought I had forgotten about, but in a way I’m glad because then I know I’ll never forget.